I’ll be 36 tomorrow!

5k run, 30 min after 1.2 walk

30m 3.10 miles 9m 41s /mile

monday

The usual back & forth today~ Nat’s band/clarinet, CJ’s kidnastics, picking them up, feeding them some kind of lunch, letting sienna drive to her job @ Gram’s with me, then the rest of the day pretty much flies. Today Nat & I went to visit Aunt So at my workplace, and she is doing well with no c/o.Natalie needed some clothing items so we went to the mall for a while, and as usual, nothing seems to fit her the way she desires. Argh…she’s ten years old! Other than that, we had fun Si had band practice: Chris is feeling a little better.Going to bed and swimming in the am, hopefully!

short run 30 min, late pm- yikes itsgettingdarkoutthere

30m 3.00 miles 10m /mile

my weekly triathaday

We made it to church late (Nat, Si and Chris went earlier).But I’m glad we went. I miss singing, but obviously could not make any additional commitments for this crazy month. We decided that Chris should stay home after and sleep since he’s been sick. Nat Ceeg & I went to the lake, as it’s supposed to rain much of the week.

My birthday will be rainy.

After 2 days sans workout (work sched and having to sleep all day Saturday)…finally we swam at the lake, & went across to buoy about 30x (more than 650 yards/0.4 miles)~ included 100 yards back, lots of breast interm. w/ free….total probably 0:18 to 20 min. 

18m 650.00 yards 2m 46s /100 yards

59m 15.33 miles 15.59 miles/hr

10m 1.00 miles 10m /mile

actually saturday

CJ had his last kidnastics for the week (with presentation….pics to come

I am proud to say Aunt So practically slept through it all but she did cough a little. I peeked in on her every hour and she was snoring. I talked with her around 3am and she still has a good outlook and her vitals are great, as usual. I also got an order for benadryl 25 mg prn rhinitis sx or insomnia, but she didn"t need it tonight!

actually thursday

25m 2.50 miles 10m /mile

Ok, so I have yet to fill you in.Haven’t had a chance to think, much less write. It’s been a bad crazy couple of days.My Aunt is still in the hospital, and will most likely be d/c’d tomorrow afternoon. I am working evenings tomorrow so susan graciously volunteered to drive her home for us. We also are discussing her going thru the rehab program where I work That would be really good, b/c she’d be more open to it.

Yesterday was I think a possessed day. Everything fell (no, it actually FLEW) apart. Natalie had a breakdown. Then i had a breakdown. Everyone is stressed out to no end. Everyone is affected by each other in such a dysfunctioal in my extended family.

i need to eat healthier.

had an apple and bananna for bkfast while driving natalie to her band lesson, dropping off cj at kidnastics, picking her back up, and driving sienna to gram’s a little earlier today.I also finally bought some new towels!

tuesday: & wednesday ::(I lied, it was actually early Wed.am, that i ran, not tuesday… but I wanted to run again at night, so there.)

35m 3.70 miles 9m 28s /mile

wednesday—

45m 4.70 miles 9m 34s /mile

pm: 19.5 mile ride in 1:12~good hard ride after a long hard day. Running will wait for the AM. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Wow- I usually love Mondays. They are for the most part productive and well-run. Today was neither. My Aunt grew ill w/ her GERD and "couldn’t breathe" so my mother sent an ambulance. After I picked up CJ from Kidnastics we headed over to Grams and I dropped off the kids. I thought I’d only be a couple of hours, since they were most likely just going to d/c her anyway. Her V/S, EKG and labs were all perfect. I was there with her untill almost 6pm, in the same ER curtain. They then told us our MD has decided to admit her to do more GI eval , so I left (I didn’t have to drive her all the way to Pawling, so that was good too.) Luckily Chris picked up the kids and got them some BK since I couldn’t cook dinner. My other Aunt called about 12 times and yelled at me b/c she didn’t realize that my machine picking up was really not ME, lol! I called her to tell her I had been at the hospital, and filled her in. She stopped yelling.

What a family.

But God’s heart. It’s so patient and kind. I allowed Him to use me today. So I guess it was quite productive after all.

I hopped on the bike to escape for a while and punch it all out on the tires. Daring is not even the word. I wanted to get past mile 20 but I ran out of water.

CJ is enjoying his Spiderman 3 ps2! He also loved Kidnastics. Natalie is a basket case. Sienna is coughing a lot and pretty much a zombie.

where’s my Merlot?

30m 3.00 miles 10m /mile

Working the Vent.

(worked 6:50pm to 12am)

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VBS has begun! Our youth group & leaders are doing a great job with the kids and their VBS theme. I plan to send in a different baked good in each day. (Today was the banana bar day!) Unfortunately, Natie didn’t like any of it…it is "too noisy!" for her. Wow. CJ, naturally, was obviously thrilled to be part of the noise-making& music. sienna is team leader for a different group. We have all week~ I hope natalie changes her heart, and I also hope CJ can behave!Natalie was really irritable today, and by the time she agreed to come with us to the lake (which I had promised them for today) it was already 4pm. we went anyway. natalie just sat on the beach towel and read her nancy drew. CJ got into a passionate argument with three older boys about Pokemon.

Geez.

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*Lately, he’s thinking he’s pretty hot stuff*

He kept his shades on at Uno’s last night for dinner. That was hysterical!

—– 400.00 yards —–

42m 11.80 miles 16.86 miles/hr

39m 4.00 miles 9m 45s /mile

Well, naturally I slept in after last night’s really late one (got home after 2am, and I couldn’t fall right asleep of course.) We decided to get to the lake after Chris came home from working at Steve’s.The day flew by really fast. I can’t believe it’s over. Sienna’s having a great time She even sent me some videos via her phone but I can’t seem to download them! Anyway, I’m so glad they are doing well, and I really need to work on the banana bars/goodies for their youth group!Natalie and CJ fought a lot today but I’m glad we went to the lake as a family.He is really trying to work on learning how to swim, and yells constantly, "look, mom!"

14.5 mile pm ride in 50 minutes–faster

SWIM: open water I did 25 yard repeats from dock to shallow, then back, etc at least 10 times, lol. Finally got the nerve up and got into the floating dock lanes-swam 250 yards there. MUST work on continual swim without breaks~ even really short ones! 

—– 600.00 yards —–

50m 14.50 miles 17.40 miles/hr

am: I took Natie in to see Dr. G (& we of course saw Laurie too!) and I explained her sx to him; the rash, the fatigue, joint soreness, the night sweats. So he agreed to have the RN get a Lymes titer. Natalie cried and cried- poor thing was visibly terrified, not just ticked off. She is a trooper when it comes to finger sticks, but the blood draw was scary for her. (Plus, she has invisible veins, like Si). So after we were all done I took her for a Chamomille tea and Adams for some rolls and cold cuts. That cheered her up a bit. Then we dropped Si off at the mall to meet Sarah and I asked Nat if she’d like to run in to Dick’s sporting with me just for a few min. I ended up buying her a 50% off portable CD player. Geez. I’m a sucker. But I really felt bad about what she went through today. So naturally, when Chris came home, I had some ‘Splaining to do.

1h 6.20 miles 9m 41s /mile

30m 1250.00 yards 2m 24s /100 yards

1h 5m 17.64 miles 16.28 miles/hr Pull 750, 250 fins. 250 free -1250 yards in about 1/2 hour. Getting faster but out of breath more today. Then my excuse to leave was an older woman who entered my lane and basically told me that I should move (!), that there was an aerobics class at noon "but everyone gets there early"- the nerve-ha! But although I had TWENTY FIVE more minutes for laps in that lane I hated anyway (Lane One SUCKS) I just left. Whatever.I have got to get into the lake this week for OW swim anyway.But tonight I went out for a great bikeride, 17.64 miles in about 65 min, with the usual stoplights. Had a fantastic ride, and I decided to slowly introduce bricks again, running between 1 to 3 miles after some of my rides. I started off real slow after tonight’s ride, i walked a little then ran a little, not even covering a mile.

Natalie has not been feeling that great lately. I’m not sure I can pinpoint the problem, but I’m thinking of just getting a Lymes test done for her, even if we doubt she’s had a tick bite. You can never really be sure

Sienna had her last day of school today! I can not believe it. The little ones are done in a week. Wow. I need to get into Summer Mode soon~ & that means a LOT of organization. Juggling three kids schedules, home life, Gram’s care, work, training, church stuff. You know what’s really mind-numbing: I have no time for freinds & other family relationships. I’ve left them all in the dust. But I will never stop loving them. This season of my life is so crazy & divided. I wish it were at least more flowing. But they all tell me it will fly by night.

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Busy night last night- worked 7 to 1am and it was a nonstop night. I had admissions and a very adorable, confused pt who had a high fall/wandering risk. Needless to say he remained at my side in his wch all evening, so that slowed me down. The night literally flew-I could not believe my watch at 11pm, and I was still doing meds & assessments. One oof my fave pts experienced an insulin reaction so I stayed untill her BS was wnl. Anyway, I am exhausted & kind of useless today. I did a lot of online research re: Gram’s CV issues.

It’s Sunday and the house is a mess, I’m missing church yet again, Must balance (HA!) my checkbook, plan the week, deal with the laundry, and chill out with my kids. 

Another free font-shopping day, otherwise useless indeed.W

I feel about 80 years old right now. I’ve got to rest so I can start the week with an early run. I hope that’s all I needed, and I pray that this week:

a. God will stop hating me

b. I will somehow have enough to manage my enormous debt & copay bills

c. I will get it together.

amen…..HI am so upset about the aaa dx..

Today was CJ’s long awaited 2nd grade "end-of-the-year bash" at Casperkill We all had a fantastic time- and there are THREE pools there! After finally talking CJ into going in, I hopped in (the three foot pool) and played with the kids, freezing to death! Then I had a chance while CJ was out of the pool to get into the 33 yard Oly sized pool, lanes & all. I only got to go across about 8 to 10 times, but it was great- I felt confident….here I was, swimming laps in a much larger, roomier pool without much in the way of, well, WALLS- and I did fine, mixing in crawl and breaststroke. It was COLD. We were there from 9:30am untill about 1:30pm! For the most part, Ceeg preferred the playground! I was nagging him about getting into the pool, I must admit. We had incredible weathr too. Then Mom called and asked me to go check on Gram right after we left, since Aunt So left and there was some sisterly dissention between the two. CJ got his BK and Mom let me fill up with her gas card since I was on empty! We stayed with Gram untill about 5pm, and she looked a little better. The kids really seem to increase her alertness level. But I am certain they exhaust her as well. Sienna probably hates me. I didn’t go to her show tonight- plus I later found out that I would have missed it, anyway….Tranquil Core went on first, muchy earlier that I would have gotten there. Plus I m nauseous- I need to be well since I have to work tomorrow evening.I just would not have the stomach and energy for loud (but good!) music and the lights, kids, sweat, etc. I hope she understands.

Todays stats, starting early on:

7m 267.00 yards 2m 37s /100 yards

1h 2m 17.00 miles 16.45 miles/hr

30m 3.20 miles 9m 23s /mile

3.2 mile short early am run in about 30…. yay! I was able to swim the 33 yard pool, at least 8 lengths during CJ’s field trip to Casperkill Gorgeous, clean and roomy outdoor pool..I need to swim laps there more often! afternoon-17 mile ride in 62 min did really well but became very nauseous.Feel bloated, like the Italian food messed me up tonight. Going to bed

more slideshows below!!!

busy making slideshows of both today (Flag Day parade & celebration at CJ’s school) and I found TONS of great photos of the past few summers we’ve had- including Natalie & I at our DCClassic race in ‘05!

The kids got stayed with Gram for a while today while Si & I had our appointment. Things are looking up. mom asked her if she’s like a job: to be paid for spending time and monitoring Gram a few hours each day during the week!

Tomorrow is a big day for CJ- we go to Casperkill for the day on the class party feild trip- and swim, etc!

I woke up to the sound of the phone reminding me that i had to take gram to an appointment today at 12:15….we got there in good time, and then found out they apparently didn’t schedule things properly & it is not until next week. arrgh! so gram had to be shuffled around in the humidity for nothing. mom & i were pretty ticked. after we dropped si off at gram’s, Nat, Cj & i cleaned up around here. the day went by fast. Am: 5k run in about 30 min. HOT & humid. the air is so wet you can drink it. But we didn’t get the heavy t-storms predicted…that’s why I slipped in a pm 13.5 mile ride in 47 min, I booked b/c it seemed any minute it might have started the downpour. i still promised chris i’d make some yummy bruscetta (w/ mozzerella) so i’m off into the kitchen. also some Cabernet Sauvignon & Law and order.

47m 13.50 miles 17.23 miles/hr

30m 3.10 miles 9m 41s /mile

open water, brave me We had a great time at Freedom Lake I finally got up the nerve to just swim out and back from the dock, and lost count- I’m going to say I swam appx 20 yards x at least 30x? Times are severely approximate…but I’m so proud!!! I was actually fast, (for ME) and am a lot more comfortable mixing in breaststroke with my free, especially for sighting purposes! We were talking with some kids & parents from school, apparently the water snake we saw under the little walkway bridge to the beach is NOT the only one at the lake….yikes.

Sienna is causing some real problems, and we are now at a real crossroads. God do we need the Cross. No wonder some things are falling apart. I haven’t been bringing my concerns to the Lord.

PM 15.4 mi ride in 56min-powerful but not fast!